Today the most amazing thing happened…we heard both of our little babes hearts beating! It was so beautiful. Baby A was at 109, baby B was at 115. Dr. Silverberg didn’t even think we would be able to hear anything this early but we heard and saw it! I am beyond happy and already so in-love with them both.
As far as how I’m feeling, well it’s up and down. At times I feel super pregnant, sick, and tired. Other times I’m ok. Last week was really rough. Non-stop nausea and diarrhea. Plus I was having the worst insomnia. I’m sleeping like a log now, well a log that gets up about 6 times a night to pee. 🙂 Don’t really have any specific cravings. Well actually I do, an Italian sub from Jimmy Johns, but DR says no cold cuts!! He did give the OK to have small amounts of chocolate occasionally and an Earl Grey tea every once in a while also. Super excited about that!
I have just been taking it easy, relaxing. It feels good. No stress! I decided not to take classes this semester, or for a while actually. I will put off school. We decided I will stay home with the babies for a few years. I’m so excited about this. I don’t want to miss a thing with them!
My HCG is at 77,000 as of today so I don’t have to get that drawn anymore. I get to go down to 2 Estradiol a day, rather than 3. Still doing Crinone 2x a day for a while. I will see the Dr every week. I’m excited about weekly visits bc I get to see the peanuts but the appts are $430 each time. Ouch! It will all be worth it!
It almost feels like I’m dreaming. I’m feeling so blessed and grateful right now.
Soooooo I went in for a beta today because I have been having some horrendous diarrhea (sorry for the TMI) and a little pain on my right side that has lasted a few days. My 4th beta was 13,463!!!! Dr. Silverberg asked me to come in for an ultrasound to make sure everything is OK. Welllll, we saw two healthy looking sacs!!! We are having twins!!!!! I am so freaking excited!!!!!!! We are due 4/22/2015. We go back next week for another ultrasound. I cannot believe I am growing two small humans in me. I am just ecstatic. I love them both so much already. Here is our u/s pic…
And here is our announcement we made on Facebook a couple days ago (yes, we announced before our u/s), and as you can see our family and friends are VERY happy for us!!!
Well that’s all for now! Soooooo happy!!!!!!!!
Ok so this morning I went and had my blood drawn again. My nausea isn’t as strong as it was a few days ago so I got paranoid. Once you’ve had a miscarriage, it totally screws with you. Plus I have all kinds of pressure and weird feelings down below. I just had to know and there was no way I could wait until next Wednesday. I got the OK to get the draw (they must think I’m nuts). Just got the call and my number went from 766 on Wednesday to 2414 today!!! I’m so excited and feeling much more comfortable and confident that this is a healthy pregnancy. Whew, sigh of relief. I’m so worn out from waiting for that call, I’m going to take a nap!
Just got beta number 2 and it more than doubled! 🙂 We went from 303 to 766! So excited, I just pray that it continues to go this way. Now I have to wait a week to get another HCG drawn. How will I survive??!! I was hoping to get another Friday but they said I’m good. So now I wait…again.
As far as how I’ve been feeling, well, it’s up and down. My breasts are definitely feeling fuller but the tenderness comes and goes. It freaks me out when it goes. I’m like, “Oh shit, I need to feel pregnant! I need sore boobs and nausea!” Lol. I’m actually nauseous A LOT, especially at night it seems. I stocked up on ginger ale. I’ve had headaches that come and go as well. My sleep has been wacky, I’ll wake up in the middle of the night and be up for hours. My mind is racing. It’s the excitement and anxiety I think. I have been relaxing a lot, it feels good just to watch TV and read books with no distractions. I’m just so darn excited and anxious for our first ultrasound, the week of the 25th!! 🙂
I originally thought that once I got pregnant I would stop posting on this blog, create a “pregnancy” blog, and leave the link for anyone that may want to follow me. I have decided not to do so. This whole thing is a journey. My journey. It is all linked together, and I want to keep it together. There is light at the end of the rainbow. I understand people will unfollow me because I’m now pregnant, and that’s ok. I have no idea how many followers I have anyways to be honest. I was there. I unfollowed probably everyone that was pregnant after my failed cycle. Not because I wasn’t happy for them, but because I was hurting and seeing those posts was a constant reminder as to why I was hurting. So to those of you that feel the need to unfollow me, I understand and I am truly rooting for you. This is a gut wrenching process. Hell, I’m not even out of the woods yet (but I’m optimistic). For those that stay on board, thanks! 🙂
Much Love. Xo
Three posts in one day…I’m on a roll. Anyways, just got the call and my magic number is 303!!!! My nurse said they only look for a 50 at 9dp5dt, and mine is 303 at 8dp5dt! She said it’s a beautiful number! Could be twins!! 😉 I go back in 48 hrs to check again. Hopefully good news! Ok, I’m done for the day. Xo
So I’m trying to be a good girl and wait right? Keeping myself busy. I was cleaning under my bathroom sink. I found an HPT. I tried so hard not to do it but I just had to!!! Immediately it showed I was pregnant! I’m headed to lab now for beta. Praying for a good number and that it stays good!!!!
I have one more day to go. The suspense is killing me. I mean, I feel pregnant, 100%. But of course…I could be wrong. It is definitely a different feeling than my last transfer which is why I don’t think it’s the progesterone, I think it’s a baby…or two. 😉 I’ve been pregnant before and each time has felt like this. I’m super excited, extremely nervous, and VERY anxious!
Last night was pretty rough. My breasts were extremely sore and sensitive all day, but that doesn’t bother me. I actually like it. It makes me feel pregnant LOL. I got really sick though. We went to see Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (awesome movie) and afterwards went to one of our favorite restaurants, Ramen Tatsu-ya. Best ramen ever. Anyway, immediately after eating it I felt sick. We rushed home and I was on and off the toilet all night and still am. The nausea was unreal. My hubby and the other couple we went with were fine. I was actually so sick that we left the other couple there, still eating their food. I normally would never do that because it’s rude but that’s how ill I was. Here is the beautiful ramen.
So tomorrow I find out if indeed there is life growing within me. I pray this gut feeling I have is right. I want to go to CVS so bad and get a test, but I promised my husband I would wait. So today I will try extremely hard to keep myself busy. It feels like Christmas Eve. I think my husband likes torturing me. He did buy me a super awesome new bracelet this weekend though, to make up for the torture maybe? I don’t know, but it made me happy! Diamonds always make me happy! 🙂
Ok, I am off on a quest to stay busy. Fingers crossed, tomorrow I post amazing news! Xo
Not much to report. My breasts have been feeling very full and tender the past couple days (especially at night). During the day, if wearing a bra, somewhat, but not so much. In my previous pregnancies this has always been how I knew I was pregnant. I feel like when I was pregnant they were SUPER sensitive. I don’t have this…yet. I’m also quite aware that progesterone can make breasts feel full and tender. I will continue to be optimistic though and believe that they are growing because I have life growing in me. 🙂 That’s really all I feel at this point. I am just really looking forward to some good news on Tuesday!! I will NOT test early. I will NOT test early. I will NOT test early…
Well it has been a little over 72 hrs since my beautiful embryos were put inside their home. I’m not feeling much at this point, it’s still rather early. My breasts are starting to feel a bit fuller so I’m hoping that’s a good sign! I’ve been much more positive in my thinking this cycle and have really bonded more with my little ice babies. I even fell asleep holding the picture framed of them.
My husband and I actually did something very scary and made our experience public to all of our friends and family. I was hesitant at first but I don’t feel this should be something that’s hidden. IVF shouldn’t be whispered about and made to feel taboo. It is a huge deal and the more prayers we can get, well, bring em’ on!!! Everyone was SO supportive!!
It really felt amazing to receive all the love we did. Part of me was scared afterwards because if it isn’t successful, I have to tell everyone. But I am really ok with it all I think. I feel it will be a success so the fear isn’t necessary.
Here is an awesome pic of my babes snuggled up in my uterine cavity. I posted this pic too. 🙂
Someone who inspired me to open up publicly was Bobbie Thomas. She just recently made her story public, and even shared on the Today show yesterday with Kathie Lee. I actually left a comment on Bobbie’s page about how I was thankful for her sharing and she replied! I thought it was super cool!
Well that’s all I got for now. Hopefully by the end of the week I have better/more news!
Well they’re both in! Here is a picture of the hubs and I, and of our two beautiful ice babies. 🙂 Yes, I framed their picture. It’s on my nightstand. 🙂 Will write more later in the week, going to finally watch Bad Words. So excited!
Well less than 24 hrs to go! I am super excited but I am also terrified. We have had SO much failure over the past several years. I just want this to finally happen. I am really going to try and stay positive and calm this time, and stay off google!!! Last transfer was just a very hectic time, the kids were finishing school, I had exams, I was constantly googling info about transfers and IVF, it was not healthy. Both of my kids are in Florida for the next week and a half so I will be home alone (during the day – hubby works), free to just relax. I took my last exam for Psychology today (almost a week early) so that I could be finished with the class early. I am officially done with this semester and got another “A”. (happy happy) That is a HUGE relief!
This week I pigged out on sushi since I won’t be able to for quite some time. Damn I love sushi. There is a new place that opened down the street and it is soooo good. I am super picky about seafood, probably because I was raised on the beach, I know fresh from not fresh. This sushi is FRESH!
So anyway, I talked to my nurse yesterday and she said my arrival time is 9:30 tomorrow morning, transfer at 10:30. They will give me 2 valium this time because last transfer I was pretty wound up (I have a very anxious personality). I told them I want to be nice and relaxed haha. I am to bring my Crinone with me and insert after the transfer, before I go home (didn’t do that last time). Today I made sure the house is spotless, a clean house is such a stress relief for me LOL. I filled up my gas tank, filled up the fridge. I also used the last of my amazing truffle goat cheese in a omelette (no soft cheese supposedly while pregnant), and I enjoyed my last non-fat latte for the next several months!
The only thing I didn’t get to do today was pick up this weeks meals at Snap Kitchen. Brandon said he would go tomorrow. Tomorrow when we get home I plan to just chill in bed for the day. I am super excited that Bad Words is On Demand now so we will definitely be watching that!
I will try and get on this week and post a pic of my little frosties. 🙂